Spizzenergi is a lovely group from sometime around the 70s or 80s that i saddly dont know much about. i know that they made two songs that i love: "wheres captain kirk?" and "spock is missing". the title of this post is a lyric from the later. i love these songs. i was planning to write a very very long emotional tiring emotionally fuffiling post but tonight im spent. totally spent. already emotionally tired to hell and back. they will need to hire a new person to play me tomorrow, i hope they pay that person well...a friend told me that if i write a memoir, they should Adam from Saw to play me, which i agree. 140 minutes of a guy pretending to be me sitting on a bathroom. well, sometimes im also a guy pretending to be me sitting on a bathroom. sometimes i like to listen to kanye west there. i spent the last month at my girlfriends place (she is totally lovely, love her!) and i remember telling her that one of the things i missed the most about my house was the bathroom. theres something there, a mystical energy unmatched. i find myself spiritually there, listening to kanye west.
Shouldn't have gone to the forbidden zone
It's too late now and I'm all alone
Shouldn't have left him on that planet
Where darkened forces made him vanish
Traveling through time I find it hard to believe, oh-oh
As in my mind for Spock, I lay a wreath
Spock, my Spock, where can you be
'Cause without you, Spock, I can't be me
Oh yeah!
Where is my first officer Spock?
listening these songs is making me remember my favorite star trek fanzine from the 70s, Contact. some of the best literature i have read can be found on issues of that fanzine. its a zine centered on what now days is know as the "hurt/comfort" in the fandom circles, focusing on the Captain Kirk and Spock romantic/friendship pairing... stories full of fragile, beautiful and vunerable moments between the characters. really good stuff. reading some of them helped me to understand myself and others better, made me consider new perspectives for feelings and relationships. i also like the illustrations a lot! overall the project reminds me of why i went to design school in the first place. its good to remember that. makes me feel more whole. you can download and read issues of Contact by clicking on this link.
